Ugh, I need to get this off my chest so it doesn’t weigh me down. Nothing bad really, just got lodged in my brain.
This morning was the worst traffic I’ve ever seen! With no traffic, I live 15-20 minutes away from my work. But with traffic, normally it takes 40-45 minutes. I’m supposed to be there at 9am, so 8:55am. I leave around 8:20am and I’m usually good. Sometimes a few minutes late if I leave around 8:25am, but today was just crap.
I woke up late. For whatever reason, I never heard my alarms go off. I woke up at 8:30am. I rushed out the door and was in my car by 8:40am. So even if the traffic was normal, I would have been in by 9:20am and I would have been late. This is the first thing that’s bothering me. I can never get up when I need to.
I heard my first alarm today and I rolled over. I normally set 5 alarms because it gives me time to get up. They are all three minutes apart and the last one goes off in plenty of time for me to take a quick shower, throw a bagel in the toaster, and head out the door. But today I just didn’t hear the other alarms. I also set a back up alarm that goes off an hour before I have to be at work, so even if I hear that I still have 15 minutes to get ready and head out the door — No shower, but hey, I got cologne.
The other part that bothered me today was how horrible the traffic was! So I ended up getting to work at 9:45am. It took an hour to get to work! I literally sat not moving for a good 15 minutes! For whatever reason the traffic was to the point where I ended up leaving it to find a better route. Honestly, I think that was a poor decision because I ended up getting stuck in other traffic. I just need to leave at 8:15am and that’s that.
I’m tired of not having any self control. I need to start holding myself accountable! I got lucky today (and I usually do). I didn’t get yelled at. I got a “look” but once I told her that the traffic was horrible, she understood. But really, I need to start taking more responsibility. And I know saying it doesn’t help. I need to take action. But for now, I’ll have to get passed it.